The more I grow the more I question.
The more I question, the more I realize how much others don't know.
And more worriedly, how much they don't care.
The more I realize they don't know or care, the more I try to go against them. The more different I try to be.
The more different I try to be, the more crap I get from others.
The more crap I get the more miserable I get.
The more miserable I get, the more resigned I get.
How like that? Sigh...
Maybe the last line should be instead:
"the more miserable I get, the more determined I am that I should not remain this way forever and the more I take steps to ensure my future happiness."
Yea, that sounds better.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
In reference to below post:
After I ended my fuming, I took a shower to cool down and decided that, as undesirable as it was, the most proper thing I could do was to go to work after all.
After all it wasn't a last minute notification, since the mail was sent out a week ago. And if I didn't read it then it was my fault that I only heard about it on the day itself.
So I went anyway, listened to people talk about something that I didn't use in work, I understood half about everything that they were talking about. And when I asked why I was put down for this, the answer was basically 'just in case in the future' -_-!!!!
Apparently when I was young, someone forgot to warn me that maturity could result in miserable wastes of your time.
After I ended my fuming, I took a shower to cool down and decided that, as undesirable as it was, the most proper thing I could do was to go to work after all.
After all it wasn't a last minute notification, since the mail was sent out a week ago. And if I didn't read it then it was my fault that I only heard about it on the day itself.
So I went anyway, listened to people talk about something that I didn't use in work, I understood half about everything that they were talking about. And when I asked why I was put down for this, the answer was basically 'just in case in the future' -_-!!!!
Apparently when I was young, someone forgot to warn me that maturity could result in miserable wastes of your time.
Friday, June 05, 2009
Right now am most disgustedly sianz....
I did not check my email for about a week or so and apparently my name got put down for something and I didn't know.
Today, that it's supposed to take place, I receive a call from a colleague that I've been put down on it.... and I'm supposed to appear at work about an hour from now...
I'm farking pissed because I want to stay as goddamned far from my workplace now as I possibly can, and now I have an obligation to go back and I don't know if I should honour that because it could be partly my goddamnned fault that I didn't see this before, but mostly
I'M JUST PISSED OFF AT THE IDEA THAT I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK WHEN I ALREADY THOUGHT I DIDN'T HAVE TO. WHAT'S THE GODAMNED LIFE-OR-DEATH IMPORTANT THING THAT REQUIRES MY PRESENCE???????? JUST TO LISTEN TO SOMEBODY TALK ABOUT SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T DIRECTLY AFFECT MY WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its supposed to start in an hour and I still dunno if I should turn up............. oh blardyfarkinghell...................
I did not check my email for about a week or so and apparently my name got put down for something and I didn't know.
Today, that it's supposed to take place, I receive a call from a colleague that I've been put down on it.... and I'm supposed to appear at work about an hour from now...
I'm farking pissed because I want to stay as goddamned far from my workplace now as I possibly can, and now I have an obligation to go back and I don't know if I should honour that because it could be partly my goddamnned fault that I didn't see this before, but mostly
I'M JUST PISSED OFF AT THE IDEA THAT I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK WHEN I ALREADY THOUGHT I DIDN'T HAVE TO. WHAT'S THE GODAMNED LIFE-OR-DEATH IMPORTANT THING THAT REQUIRES MY PRESENCE???????? JUST TO LISTEN TO SOMEBODY TALK ABOUT SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T DIRECTLY AFFECT MY WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its supposed to start in an hour and I still dunno if I should turn up............. oh blardyfarkinghell...................
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Jeremy Monteiro and the Tang Quartet was not so aptly named, since in last night's concert, there was less tang than I thought.
There was jazz and plenty of good jazz. Quet thought the saxophonist was great and I thought the trumpet was superb, and we both agreed that the 4 stringed instruments were sadly 'extra'
This was quite disappointing in that aspect. The Tang Quartet are a brilliant quartet of stringed instruments in their own right. For this concert, most of the music seemed to have been handled by the jazz musicians rather than them. They seemed to be relegated to the role of light musical accompaniment, drowned out at times by the heavier sounds of the saxophone and trumpet.
All in all, a good concert, but with some better arrangements, could have been better.
( funnily I expected to enjoy this one more, since I wasn't familiar with FF music and this concert had 2 of my favourite artistes. Oh well, just goes to show... )
There was jazz and plenty of good jazz. Quet thought the saxophonist was great and I thought the trumpet was superb, and we both agreed that the 4 stringed instruments were sadly 'extra'
This was quite disappointing in that aspect. The Tang Quartet are a brilliant quartet of stringed instruments in their own right. For this concert, most of the music seemed to have been handled by the jazz musicians rather than them. They seemed to be relegated to the role of light musical accompaniment, drowned out at times by the heavier sounds of the saxophone and trumpet.
All in all, a good concert, but with some better arrangements, could have been better.
( funnily I expected to enjoy this one more, since I wasn't familiar with FF music and this concert had 2 of my favourite artistes. Oh well, just goes to show... )
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