Frayed Nerves

I don't know whether it's workplace stress that's causing it, or all the fracas with him over Vday and CNY, but my brain finally surrendered on Monday and gave me a splitting migraine. This continued all the way to Thursday, getting sharper and more enduring, till I sucuumbed and saw a doctor on Thursday. [there goes another lindy class -_-!!!]

The diagnosis was that it was a tension headache, probably caused by accumulated stress over a period of time. Yea, and it had to hit when I was finally starting to relax... -_-!

I suppose the usual thing to do would be to try to relax more, but it's not quite so easy. Identifying stress triggers [incidents at work, wrong words from him, voice of mother] is easy. Trying to deal with it is another thing.

Like when my mom tells me to do the laundry when I am blogging. I feel myself getting irritated, short-tempered, and my heart beats faster. But what do I do about it then? Ah, not so easy to calm yourself then. Or like when he tells me I should do up my hair, or lose some weight, and I feel myself getting worried again... No way on earth to suddenly lose 10 kg on the spot before I meet his mother :p

How then? Hai...... Maybe it's because of scolding the kids, but nowadays I get more short-tempered when something goes wrong. My first instinct is to want to scold somebody, someone, something! Just to make myself feel better, I guess...

I do try to cool down, and breathe slower, but that's more like trying to alleviate the symptoms, rather than attacking the source of it. I also have the pills the doc gave me, but I'm afraid of what will happen after the medication ends and I still have the headaches. :S How then? I don't wanna be dependent on these pills everytime either.

alamak....... just typing this blog entry also making me stressed liao...........